My lava lamp is cold

It is uncomfortably cold in my room and maintenance can't figure out why....

Moving On:
Yesterday/this morning was pretty okay. Finally got to play racquetball and catch up with people. I had my first 3M class Metaphysics, Morality, and Mind it is probably going to be challenging but I think I am going to like it. I also went to my first real class with Airhart he pretty much is scary but although my GPA will probably suffer I think its going to be good. He is super sarcastic which is really funny because that is what I am used to from home. Most people don't know what to do but I think he is really funny. Nothing else of consequence really happened. Had lots of laughs playing racquetball with the girls. "Did you just say it is probably an escaped convict?" Oh yeah and I bombed my speech, not really but I didn't like it.

So the chapter today was "Life Boat Theory--How to Kill Your Neighbor" I love how Donald Miller takes things that most people don't think about and gives meaning to them. For example I have spent my life playing sports, being a good student, working to gain money, trying to be right and wanting to look better. Why? An MXPX lyric comes to mind on this topic as well "Excuse me but you don't know me and I sure don't know you neither." Why do I go around in life trying to impress not only the people I know but those I don't know its not like they care. Does anyone really care that I can fold 30 pizza boxes in a minute?

He makes the analogy that life is like a lifeboat and we are all trying to be the one not kicked out when someone needs to go. How do we do this...we try to make our case by putting value on our life by doing things like playing sports etc. The thing is these accomplishments don't make us feel good for long. We need gods love. Without it we are like plants in the sun we die. Without God we are all in the lifeboat but with him we should be like the alien from before and not understand the jockeying for position in life.

It is all well and good that he points this all out and it sounds super peachy. Let me be a realist here and venture off on a limb and say that I know God loves me but I still jockey for position everyday. I know it wasn't part of God's plan before the fall and his love is meant to sustain us and we should get our value from God. I personally find that very hard to do and I know for a fact others stink at this too. Maybe there is some hope that I will learn and continue learning to put my value in God.