recovering

Wow~finally recovering for KB I think I am getting back the frequency ranges in my ears again, although the 4 K is still muffled. The stage volume they were running was insane. I think the last day as far as cool audio stuff was probably the best day. I set the stage and ran monitors for Sanctus Real basically by myself because Tony took a phone call and disappeared. Pretty sweet, not gonna lie.

"Don't bring me any more burnt offerings of bulls and rams and goats. Why do you keep parading through my courts with your worthless sacrifices? The incense you bring me is a stench in my nostrils! Your celebrations of the new moon and the Sabbath day, and your special days for fasting-even your most pious meeting-are all sinful and false. I want nothing more to do with with them. I hate all your festivals and sacrifices. I cannot stand the sight of them! From now on, when you life up your hands in prayer, I will refuse to look. Even tho you offer many prayers, I will not listen. For your hands are covered with the blood of your innocent victims. Wash yourselves and be clean! Let me no longer see your evil deeds. Give up your wicked ways. Learn to do good. Seek justice. Help the oppressed. Defend the orphan. Fight for the rights of widows." Isaiah 1

This past week and early God has really gotten ahold of my heart as far as a whole bunch of stuff but like I mentioned in an earlier blog about what it means to really love people. Recently God has put it my heart that a bunch of my actions over the years and especially this summer have been less than Christian. Thankfully he has also put people in my life to talk with agree with and call me out on things. You guys know who you are and from the bottom of my heart I thank you.

This past summer I have had the time of my life hanging out with people. Being able to hang out and have a solid group of friends has produced what I can say has been the best summer of my life.

The point I am trying to get to however is some of the exclusiveness that has come with that. God knows I am the first offender and maybe the worst. There are people that I don't like and don't want to see them outside of church, but what did God call us to do? Seek Justice, help the oppressed, fight for the rights of widows. What does it mean to love these people.

Don't get me wrong I am by no way against hanging out and it only being certain people. That breeds community and fellowship but when its all the time and certain people are never invited its starts to get a bit sketchy. I was talking to Pauly yesterday and he was telling me (no names) that there is someone who told him he would die to get a call from my group of friends to hang out and because it never happened he was really hurt in a lot of ways. That broke me even more because I was that kid in high-school. I didn't have friends to hang out with.

There is so much more to come. I just can't express what I am feeling in words.

I do regret not hanging out with the girls last night and that would be an example of building community but I got to admit I just had a conversation from 3:30-8:30 (no lie) about how I wanted to change my world and accept people and change the church starting with my head and my actions when I herd Kate couldn't go it was just something I had to do. The person I was talking with called me on it because he was in the room when I called. Different situations breed different things but if any of you guys read this if I don't get a chance to talk to you thats where my head is at.

crazy day

wow long day. Fuel souncheck. fuel. interview with Kbeers. service. lunch with beck. Kingdom Bound.

Not gonna lie KB was sweet today. It was great to just be backstage and work and pick up audio tricks. I handed a guy a 58...aka the name of the mic. I go do you want the clip with this 58. He said yeah...hey do you know about audio. I told him I knew enough to get by and I knew my way around a stage. He asked me to be his assistant (aka runner) for the rest of the festival so he didn't have to keep repeating himself to the rest of the team. SWEET. He also asked me how quick i could pick up the monitor board...don't know what that means.

So yeah I had a really cool experience today. Reggie Dabbs (spelling?) spoke and did a drama. It was intense. Basically there where two Jesus's one that was gold and one that was all beat and broken. The real Jesus was the beaten and broken Jesus. He was affecting people and telling him that he loved them while the other Jesus had no effect on people. Lately I have been thinking a lot with the help of MW about what it really means to love others.
Today Kevin (J) was interviewed in service and in part of it he mentioned this guy named Lenny that took his brother in. he wasn't a Christian but obviously showed compassion and love. I wonder which Jesus I am following and expressing the gold Jesus for the middle class person that fits my ideals or the Jesus that was broken for us, beaten for everyone. I feel like so many non-Christians have a better idea of what love is the Christians (including myself). Just so food for thought and incite into where my head has been at.